Honestly, I have no clue where the month of February went to… Last week I was sick out of my socks, bed bounded… with the flu. As soon as monday Hit I felt much better. Therefore the hopes of me spreading such a ‘blessing’ simply went down the drains. Thats nothing. Flu season is on and Imma slap the person who has the flu and comes near me… To much money went on gettin Advil Cold and sinus Plus and doing this and that… I am simply flu-free right now..
I finally got an answer to my RA applications. I have a group meeting on saturday.. Quite early compared to my other friends who have it next week but I am not complaining so I guess that is good!!
I finally did my calculus midterm and a religion one yesterday so I feel relieved to the core. I am so happy its over, and hopefully the grades will be something of gold and platinum I hope. I am gonna say this now, if i dont get an A in Calculus, I am redoing the course.!! well I Mean Calculus 2 that Is since I already Have the A in Cal 1.
Offf to some ameelicious shytt right now!!
My “friend” came over yesterday night to see me… that friend just decided to pop by. texted me and then he/she popped by. Ype the same one that upset me… I dont know If i wrote the big upset on here. It was not a really big one but it was more of a blow in the face. After a point I had totally blocked all communications with that friend but recently I got an explanation for such behaviour. One I found quite reasonable, but nothing can excuse that blow though. But softie me… YOU KNOW ALREADY!!…

*off to bed to sulk*

So I met up with a new friend today because he came to my school to watch some bball game.. Thats nothing per say. but the story Starts way way way past that… I fell sick yesterday with the flu.. I am so blaming O and L for this one.. LMAO because L had it and some other girls on my floor had the flu also.. So last night I began suffering with that O so high Fever..
I got driven to spring gardens to shoppersmart to get some Advil for the flu… So there is this friend who lol didnt want to mingle with me since he was so scared of gettin the flu.. I texted one of my bffz the joke and she was laughing… THEN!!

She texted me back some news… Like i feel so distraught right now.. Well not really but there is a lump in my chest.. I guess I deserve that lump… Why do I deserve it.. Well the news my friend told me changed my perception on everything.. Lately I have been having terrible moments with someone.. And I do believe or rather I say I did wanted those moments to go by smoothly, which it didnt. I put my all into those moments and I only got one quarter. There is one thing my sister said, and I am holding it to her, boys always act 2 yrs younger than they really are.. And such I experienced.. I went to a game with a friend.. I never said he was obliged to stay with me but I went to sit to the back and he went wid his buddies.. wow…
ok… thats so not KOOL!! but I was like w.e I went on to do what I usually do…
N thats scope out the guys and their butts.. I HAD the hell of a time.. Like I told one of my bffz I really wish I was like 17 or 16 all over again.. cuz doing all that shit makes me feel like some pedophile.. or rather craddle robber!!!

So I sat there to have the time of my life which I did.. I totally got over the event… N I did see this dude who I saw on the Bus in first semester.. I thought he looked soo cute… LOL apparently yup he is younger than I am… so Like since I was affiliated with someone else I could make a move and say Hi..
but it was apparent he remebered me as the girl on the bus!! which is great!! haha…
so this is … yess… I think I have typed a little to much.. but Imma continue
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So on saturday We made up our minds to go to Adept tattoos to get a peircing done.. but my friend felt un prepared so I did not anymore.. She wanted a few days to gear up herself for the pain lol…
So today we planned to go get it.. I met up with my floormate nicole who had hers done the day before and she recommended Kara’s Urban Day Spa to me. So i thought WHy not since its much closer to us and my friend said it was cheaper..
We went to spring gardens and searched for the place after making an appointment.. we eventualy got it..

It was like time to gear ourselves.. i decided to be the brave one so I went first.. OMG it felt like a pinch.. Like I have gotten worse pinches from teachers to be quiet.. After it was done I was like WOW.. thats it huh???
then My friend got hers done n that was it..
EASY AS 1-2-3…

Im not able to comprehend such a day.. but w.e Im not confused or whatever.. I am just sad.. utterly sad.. My relationship is slowly going down into the dumps and we are both trying but everything just seems to be going wrong… So what is it that I am missing.. What signs should I look at .. WHAT THE HELL SHOULD I DO?? Anyways whatever.. I guess im trying and thats all that matters..
I have a sore heart… that is slowly gettin cold.. And a part of me is beginning not to care…
If i dont be true to myself then…. Its like he thinks im all about me and not us.. And maybe im over reacting I just think that its a critical thing and … I just simply dont know what to do or say… at least we kind of share some mutual sentiments…

Whatever…. May the tears fall…

What happened on VDay.. nothing really.. had a roller coaster night in my point of view.. and morning.. I think that day changed alot of my thoughts But I think its time to get used to this.. Submit myself to what i have to do and get over the rest…
im Done!!
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I really dont know But i think I need to write another Poem..
One that is going to be really deep Because I think I am breaking a heart again…
And It is one I have broken before…
One that I dont want to break again!!
And one that I know has built a wall that was suppose to be Immune to me..
but I keep on going back to that one.. And I know I am gonna break his heart..
i do Want to be a really good friend.. i think we settled upon not talking since we both felt something.. for each other..
but nothing was going to become of that since my heart actually did lay somewhere else..
But I miss the friendship, I wont lie.,..
And he is one of the few people who made me feel me around myself… Made me smile .. and laugh at a whole bunch of stuff..

*sigh*…
I dont know what to do because I dont want to leave him alone.. I just want him to be wid me… like before as my really good friend but you get all what you want right?

I am currently Listening to Leona Lewis.. Her song Run.. it just makes me think.. Prior to that I was texting a friend who was suppose to come over to chill.. but apparently the friend bailed out since he/she felt really tired and what not.. More like lazy but whatever.. I am trying to complete my bio labs.. it what I do every sunday Religiously.. I got my Pysch grades back and I am not pleased one bit. But I guess I am going to have to suck it in since the day before the exam I made that comment

Fuck it!! I am tired of studying for that stupid exam I need a damn BREAK!!

So yeh… I guess I deserved that grade for just watching the slides twice and being done with it… I am beginning to think I am gettin delinquent… And all i do is stay in my room and do nothing.. sleep and oversleep.. I really dont know how to rectify that problem but It needs to be rectified ASAP!! I am not used to getin B’z and gettin one would seriously break my heart… I got A’s for my religious and bio midterms but they did not weigh as much as the psych one.. So i really need to pull up those socks…

At least thats how I feel currently.. People are crucifying me for my demands.. I want A’s and I guess since i complain about B’z they get upset since they dont see a B as a bad grade.. I dont either But i never want to settle for lless.. I think Maybe IM wrong in complaining about my B… I need to suck it in and realise its not a bad grade at all and evidently Work on it!!

SO I am chilling there awaiting for someone to text me or something… I have this friend who promised to come chill wid me tonight but that friend decided not to keep that word and went somewhere else.. I am bored out of my mind that I could just cry… I am also o so very damn upset, reason being- I DONT KNOW..
I really really anticipated chilling with my friend but whatever.
So maybe I am upset with that friend.. I might just get over it and refuse to chill with that friend again… Its like to much…

One time The friendship is all mutual… We put in evreything EQUALLY.. Then one time, I put in stuff seeing thta promises are never kept Then… NOTHING HAPPENS..
what day was that, cant remember, my phone had a problem so i wasn’t gettin much calls or texts.. I thought my friend didnt email me but apprently my friend did and my friend apologized and showed up to chill.. I was all yippeee and what not!!
but whatever I am like eff it
this friendship might just be over preeeeetttty soon Because I cant take it anymore

And im blue
Because Of U…
I honestly hate you right now..
i do.. i jus ugh!!
jus friggin call me..
but thanks for the no show!!

And I tried…
And I waited…
Like the fool that I am
I waited…
Waited with hope,
My smile waited…

And Im torn,
just because I waited…
And Honestly I never wanted too
Never felt I had to…
Promised myself I would have never wanted to…
But here I sit.. torn.. Just because I waited..

Im tired of being all alone
And Im gon try to go back where I once was…
Just before I fell…
I fell for something that was untrue…
Like a Fool
I waited…

This is a poem i pulled… out…
but there is more.. so ill get back to you on that